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OCD Poem

Imagine for a moment
Thoughts you can't shelf
Worries, dilemas
You chew and rechew
This is not reflection
Nor something I choose
This perseveration
Comes from deep inside
Something not turned off
Nor put to one side
Getting infections
Real or otherwise
Contamination
From one's loving guy
Fear of food poisoning
You know is not there
Terrors of harming
The one's who do care
Welcome to my life
That's what it's about
Do you now know
Why I sometimes scream and shout?
Sounds irritate me
Like nails on a blackboard
Smells overwhelm me
Make my stomach churn
Tactilly defensive
though not all the time
No wonder I hate me
Since early in life.

What It's Like

Do you know what it's like
to walk in my shoes?
To go round and round
not knowing what to do?
Over and over
through and through?
To think the same things
no change will do?
Til you've walked that mile
Don't tell me you knew
Or that you know me
this is me, that's you.
You know that feeling
song stuck in your head?
Imagine that happening
with everything instead.
Pictures occuring
No peace to be had
Words you must say
that don't make you glad
That's only a fraction
of what it's like to be me
My own private hell
that won't let me be.